I want this with her. A certain someone but not have it be something only temporary..
- ( Twenty One Pilots made me think this )
I am in a war and my guns and armor were taken away
No protection, I’m in a firefight. I can throw stones and even some dirt, But soon this dirt is where I will lay
No breathing, no heartbeat, eyes closed, no more movement, I’m already shot, I’m bleeding out, I’m sorry dad, I don’t think I’ll make it home…
I open my eyes and what I see is me sitting in front of the mirror that I have grown to despise..
I look in my eyes and see the tears I’ve cried and believe in things that could be lies
It’s like i’m not one I can recognize.
My heart was changed and so I loved, had so much joy by him above but now it seems that has changed.. changed.
There’s a war going on inside me, I don’t know who will proclaim victory
but there’s a side of me that knows some things wrong with me and a side that hates and despises me.
Wants to destroy and get in the way of the joy that I seek and make me swallow these pills like it’s something dire for me.
Now me I know I’m being attacked by the enemy and it’s such a shame that this was brought down on me, unfortunately
I was given a new heart and even a new mind
All this came but in time I started staining my new robe that maybe now shouldn’t be mine.
- This is a poem or a song i’m working on. Yeah. As you can see i’m not doing very good. Good.
I’m not looking for your sympathy or for you to feel bad for me. I just felt the need to let this out. I don’t usually do this.
- Rachael (via another-chance165)
Not Caused By Nothing
Life is Beautiful
My names Rachael and this is a story about my life. I wasn’t the way I am now-ever. I was depressed, bullied, broken… I seemed to not be going anywhere, my life was just horrible. I use to punish myself; I harmed myself and starved myself. In 4